When You've Got to Surrender -- Grace

It's been one wild ride of a week.  I mean, this week could have been comparable to the world's tallest roller-coaster.

The latter half of this week found me questioning a lot of things.  You see, I like to know what to expect.  Even though I'm flexible in the minor things of life, I like to know the big things.  You know -- the super big stuff, like what grade I'm going to be in and what I want God wants me to do in my life.  (And yes, you're probably saying I'm crazy, but I like to know what my biggest calling is.  You know, some people are nurses, and some are teachers, and some are musicians.  For a long time, I've felt like I could be none of these...or all three...or something else, but I didn't know what).

I have questioned since Thursday a lot of things that I've already prayed about a ton.  Right now in my life I see two very distinct paths, a fork in the road.  And, as I can see it now, they both look straight and narrow.  Yet I know the Lord is very much interested in which one I shall take...and I am sure there is an answer that He would give to me.

The thing is...I've prayed about all of this before...and I'm pretty sure I know what He wants me to do.  The only problem?  I want to take the other road.

As a result of this desire and a retreat I've been attending this weekend, I wrote...this.

I stand before a parted road;

I see now two paths ahead.

And both are straight and narrow ways...

I cry to Christ Who bled,

"So bright the things I could achieve --

I'd be rich beyond compare!

Yet still I find I'm asking me,

'Would I find my Savior there?'

There's a widened road ahead of me;

I see it now so near...

Yet if I take that winding path,

I'd lose what I hold dear.

Though other callings tempt me still,

I'll walk the narrow way --

Though bright the things that call to me,

I'll go for You today."

:)