So, earlier this week, Promise and I wrote posts to each other explaining the things we liked most about each other, right?
Well....I have a confession to make.
I'm highly competitive. I'm also a very, very needy person. I'm timid. I doubt myself. A lot. I doubt a lot of people. I am one of the 14,000,000 people in the United States who has or does struggle with depression.
It's been better lately, but it's been a hard week.
When I feel like someone is better at something than me, I result to beating myself up over it. And when people tell me what a good job I did or how cute I look on a particular day, I tend to think they're lying to make me feel better.
I don't do this a lot, but I do occasionally. I especially have the last few days. I do it a lot more when I'm alone with my thoughts.
So when Promise's post came out, I thought it was really sweet, but I shrugged it off as just another attempt to get me to feel good about myself.
I actually thought tonight, "Yeah...I can prove every single one of those wrong." But you know what happened then? The Spirit came and whispered something to me.
"She knows that. And yet, she still loves you.
Jesus knows everything about you, but He still died for you. Nothing will ever change that."
And in that moment, what Jesus did for me became real.
I fell to my face and cried, "My God, my God, why did You die for me?"
And the answer was still the same: "I love you."
So I guess what I want to leave you with is this:
Jesus died for you. He loves you soooo much.
But that's not the ending.
He's alive.
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